a memoir for no body.

by an on Saturday, August 9, 2008 at 2:02pm

its absolutely amazing how so much can be
erased in moments, a single second.
like they couldn't stand to be reminded
of what had happened;
all I see are holes
not counting the pressure that now fills
what used to be something so amazing
its crazy, I'm crazy
for hoping and praying and keepsaking
something I held so dear for so long
while he washes away it all with one quick
delete
I must have missed that song
with melodies of remorse
with those feelings of 'someday'
with every glimmer of hope and care
and faith and love
its not in the cards
maybe there will be another chance.
this was our second, maybe third
who's counting?
all I know is I can't just click the 'remove'
button, and throw away every note, every letter
every smile, every dream, every hope
they don't have a 'delete this message' on ones memory
they don't have a reset for every hug

this girl doesn't know why she builds herself up
just to be dropped down, picked up again.



i need something else.